First Blog

So here is the first blog post. I’m not really sure what I’m doing but I am sure I start with pray. So precious Heavenly Father, creator of all and instructor, please guide my thoughts and my heart in posting what our message should be. I know our goal is to reach those who are lost and to be humble and honest in our teaching. If it be your will Father let us write about what you want your children to know. I pray this in the name of your son Jesus Christ, Amen.

I would like to share with you my first experience with God. I know we have all had our own experiences and I would love to hear about yours too. That is what this section is for. I had been back and forth with God for many years. I believe, I don’t believe, I believe, I don’t believe. It was like picking the petals off a daisy. Oh, I could tell you the many excuses I have for not trusting in the Bible or in God, but it all really comes down to me. I can’t blame anyone else for my downfall, except me. I tried. I tried to say it was because I came from a home that was filled with hypocrites. But in reality that is is their downfall not mine and they will be judged for their actions. The decisions I made are what I am going to be judged for and me alone. So that is what I have to take responsibility for. So when I finally realized that I really needed God in my life I was 62 years old. I had been watching sermons on TV because I didn’t want to go to a “hypocritical” church. While I lay in bed one night, I finally asked God the question. Straight up I asked him, God you know what I have done, and I know that the sins I have committed are punishable by death and I can never get to heaven, but can you forgive me and do I have a chance to get into heaven? Can you come into my life and accept me as a Christian? Let me tell you, there was not even a second that went that went by when I felt this overwhelming love, joy, happiness and peace that I have never felt before in my entire life. I was crying and laughing and smiling and I just thanked him over and over and over again. It was so amazing that nothing around me existed. I was in total peace with myself and my Lord. I believed from that moment on that God existed and he was now my Father and I was his child. I ran in and told my husband the great feeling that I felt. I got a crazy look , but I didn’t care. I felt happy for the first time in my life. I felt loved! Truly Loved! That was the presence of the Holy Spirit entering my heart. Now it is my responsibility to take care of him. To love him and nurture him. I quit smoking medical marijuana because I didn’t want to miss a moment that he might speak to me. I wanted my thoughts to be clear. I didn’t care that I would be in pain. I knew God would heal me in his time. I began to thirst for his words and wanted to learn about all he had to offer and what I could do for him. This is where my journey began.